Showing posts with label Roma. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Roma. Show all posts

Monday, November 28, 2011

A delirious state

I keep running a fever above 102℉ (39℃) since yesterday--in fact, I am certain I have a fever right now since I feel extremely cold but my skin is burning to the touch. Perfect timing if you ask me with all of the final papers and studying I have to do. I even missed the UCD General Strike today...or maybe I participated considering I have only moved from my bed to the couch and from the couch back to my bed. No school for me, just hallucinations. The day has been a haze, alternating between reality and a feverish dream like state.
In my feverish delirium this morning, I thought I was back here:


I even called out to (insert name here). It's my biggest held secret and it is better this way because this way it is only mine. The truth is, it's not wanderlust, it is love that takes me back to feverish August nights. They were so painfully short in memory and right now I feel a yearning...I want to go back. Or maybe I am stuck in a perpetual delirium, alternating in between a feverish lustful and loving influenza of the heart, body, and mind.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Italia = amore o ossessione?

I have 236 pages of reading tonight to complete for my classes tomorrow and I have read maybe 97 pages or so. I am so easily distracted and I have one obsession driving me crazy right now: Italy.
Instead of doing the reading I was assigned as homework, I have spent the last couple of hours reading, looking, etc about Italy...more specifically Rome. Maybe it doesn't help that I am reading Renaissance literature this summer and am studying the Italian Futurists in my "Avant-Gardism" class. Maybe all this love of Italy is birthed from the fact that I cannot get away from it. She is everywhere but then again she is here by choice, she is not forced upon me. After all, I have chosen to double major in Italian.
Did the whole universe conspire to this love? Was that fateful day in which I left to what I thought to be "randomness" to learn a new language predestined?
I cannot say. All I can say that that July of 2009 when I pulled "Italian" from my plastic bag, I was somewhat relieved that I wasn't going to have to learn a whole new script for Arabic. I remember immediately going to Livemocha and beginning my Italian "courses." Arguably we could say that Italian is so similar to Spanish and this has greatly facilitated my learning of it but I was also rather obsessive in my learning. I used to listen to the radio constantly, watched movies, tried to read in Italian--I am still amazed now when I listen (much less frequently) and I understand. I can understand! Isn't that amazing? Furthermore, people understand me! I speak and they understand me! I am by no means fluent but I am still amazed. I am amazed that what was once undecipherable is now intelligible language. Is it this that made me fall in love? Have I replaced all sense of romantic love into a country? It is possible.
I often say I am glad I am not Italian and I am very serious when I say this because if I was I probably would not love Italy as I do. The beauty of Italy is that it is not my own but foreign. Even in all of its foreignness it is mine because she has it all: art, food, language, music, landscape. She is not mine by obligation, she is mine because I have chosen her to be my lover and she always welcomes me with open arms. She does not stifle me. She accepts me with all my virtues and faults. And I have proof she loves me back because even when I visited her in winter she provided me beautiful sunny days and only rained the day of my departure.
Le sigh.
Do not ask me why I love her because I cannot tell you why. I just feel it. You know that sensation, the one that gives you butterflies in your tummy, that makes your chest ache, that makes you smile immediately at the thought...Italy is this to me. I cannot help but think of Carrie Bradshaw (sorry for those who never saw Sex in the City) and how she describe New York City as her lover. I understand now fully what she meant. The idea of Italy is so powerful in my mind, the ideal portrait of the Old World still living. Granted all of Europe contains this element but in Italy it is different. Maybe her landscape often reminds me of California and there is some comfort in that. Maybe it is the fact that the art I have loved from my childhood is housed in the Uffizi in Florence. Maybe it is the incredible diverse amounts of cheese and wine. Maybe it is the people and their melodious language accompanied by hand gestures. Non so e non posso spiegarlo, solo so che l'ho nel cuore.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

The things I do when I am in love...

There always comes a moment when the desire to create becomes more than just a desire, it is an uncontrollable need. My hands have been rather useless to me, well, that's not entirely true. My hands help me everyday throughout this existence I perpetually live in, doing wonderful things such as playing with my daughters toes or scratching an itch but this is nor here nor there. My point is: I came to the point that I needed to do some art with my hands!
People always mock me because I collect the weirdest things. I save almost everything I deem "important" from bus passes, museum tickets, to random pieces of paper. You call it trash, I call it gold. Now, when I travel or I am experiencing something important, I really save odd things like tea bag wrappers and napkins. When I was on my vacation, I saved boarding passes, advertisements, and maps (a little secret: I love maps). When I got back, I placed all my "trash" into a box because I knew that same day I would use it. I have many boxes like this...things I am saving because one day it will be handy to me. Many of these boxes have remained untouched for years.
Lucky for this little vacation box, I am in love and when I am in love, I need to create. My dormant hands grabbed this vacation box and a dusty blank canvas and began to magically lay pieces into shape. Now, I'm not saying this is a grand masterpiece, nor do I expect it to be hanging at the MoMA someday but this was exactly what my hands were craving to do. Now my hands are satisfied and my passionate heart are content.

This is my tribute to my giro in Italia!


P.S. In case you are wondering who (ok, ok, what) I am in love with, does the subject of this collage give you an idea?

Friday, March 12, 2010

Finalmente: Roma!

As I have aforementioned, I did not take many photographs as one would expect in Europe. But I did take many more in Roma than I did the other places. I have to admit that I had a rather difficult time scraping up the courage to look at these photos. A part of me didn't want to mutate the image of my mind of Roma with actual images of Roma. Nonetheless, I feel a longing that I cannot put into words when I see these photographs. I am in love with La Città Eterna. But this you already know from my previous blog about Roma. So here I am exactly 40 days later after leaving Roma posting these images and without further ado, my version of Roma, in chronological order (except for the last image):

First things first, Musei Vaticani

Don't ask me why but I love photographing police officers. Remember the one I took in Masachapa?



Can you see my reflection?







Basilica Papale di San Pietro in Vaticano


I climbed stairs...and then more stairs but I eventually got to this...
the ceiling inside the Basilica and I also saw this...

Piazza di San Pietro
Seeing the city from so high above was so amazing. I could see many of the famous spots of Roma.


The best shot I got of Pietà

La Fontana di Trevi
The fountain that has shaped my childhood dreams.

During the day...

and at night. Yes, I went twice. Actually, I went four times!


Il Colosseo


La Porta Portese
The Roman flea market and I found many treasures that I brought home with me.



He was the most interesting character that I met in Roma. He would not let just anyone buy his stuff. I don't understand why but he was extremely particular to who could even look at the vintage photographs that he was selling. I was part of the lucky few allowed to get near. I bought some amazing vintage photos for €20.

Yes, all of this was for sale.

Leaving the Fiumicino Airport (again) after a missed flight


La strada: compilation of shots while roaming the streets of Roma



Piazza Venezia

I love the look of this man. I love and hate this McDonald's sign but then again, it is the very spirit of Roma that I love: the clash of the ancient with the modern.
Behind the Pantheon

Piazza Navona

And now, my absolutely favorite photo of Roma. It symbolizes all that I love about Roman culture and its inhabitants. If I think one photo I took can portray the spirit of Roma the way I see it, this one would be it.


Manco Roma...ma presto bellissima, siamo insieme.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Thoughts on a flight back

Thank goodness for laptops right now, otherwise this twenty-two hour flight would be beyond boring. Right now, I have all this energy still surging through me and the only solution I have is to savor all my memories and my emotions is by writing them. I can’t tell a chronological story about my travel in Roma. There is so much to tell and so many adventures that I am going to have to limit them to only a few, otherwise I think I could write a short novel on it. But since it is impossible for me to follow chronology, I’m going to make this blog somewhat like a Fellini’s “Roma” and in that same spirit, I am a little like Roma itself. There will not be a storyline to follow and the photos, I will add to a later blog. This is the nature of Roma, beautifully ordered chaos.

There’s no place like home…Rome. Amo Roma!
Oh my gosh, I am in love. No, it’s not a prepubescent infatuation with the latest all male pop-star group, my love for Roma is deep and profound. Of course, I don’t think I am the only person that had ever felt this way after visiting Roma for the first time but nonetheless I feel like Roma is my greatest lover. I think it is impossible not to fall in love with Roma, the landscape, the art, and its people are all part of its charm…oh and don’t let me fail to mention the delicious food (anche amo gnocchi allora). Roma is a city of diversity, its inhabitants are from all sorts of different places of the world and walks of life, each one taking their chance and adventure in Roma. Some go to that go to Roma to live like a Roman at least for a little while and some have made Roma their permanent home thus entering that fortunate circle of being called Roman.

When in Roma…
            Romans are one of a kind people—seriously I have no complaints what so ever. They have a fusion of a laid back, careless style of if you don’t like it fanc*lo and yet, they are thoughtful and wonderful hosts to tourists. Rules are illusions and time is an abstract concept that people sometimes choose to follow. There are words and phrases that are fairly overused and rarely backed up by any truly substantial evidence. Everyone promises to provide you something subito (meaning fast/immediately) but one is never really sure if subito will happen and sometimes I wonder if it is said simply out of sheer habit because in the end Romans follow their own time. And Italian men are very good for the self-esteem, carelessly complimenting you as you walk by saying, “Ciao Bella!” (“Hello Beautiful!”) and when they stop to talk to you, they make you think you’re the most amazing woman in the world. It’s no wonder Italian males are known as Latin Lovers.

            Roma is a beautifully ordered chaos—I really don’t know how else to really describe it. How they manage to be passionate and chaotic while still organized, is truly an enigma to me. Yet, it all works in this beautifully orchestrated symphony that only Romans know how to follow by heart.

Most Italians were always happy and helpful when I spoke Italian. Most thought I was a Spanish tourist (you know from Spain) but others asked if I was American. I suppose my accent in Italian must be a mixture of the two. The most interesting and amusing to me is when I told people where I was from I always got the same reaction, “Oooooh California!” with hands thrown back and eyes facing upward. After the physical reaction, came the comment that they wanted to go to California and asked me if I love it, to which I responded to with, “Si, California è bellissima!” (Yes, California is beautiful). I am glad that I’m not from a boring state like Nebraska and that being a California girl made me quite popular. I tried investigating why and from what I gathered it’s a combination of myth and new world glamour that causes the California adoration.

            Sigh. I really feel like I became a part of Roma and a part of me didn’t want to leave but I have to admit that I miss my daughter, family, and friends so much. I want to convince myself that the charm of Roma is that I am not from or live in Roma but I discovered that Romans feel the same way about Roma that I do. Romans love Roma. Italians love Italy! And why not? It’s absolutely amazing. There is an energy that is incomparable and I had never felt anywhere else. Let me paint you a scenario: it is a Saturday night, you went out to dinner with some new Roman friends and maybe had a little too much wine. Then they decide it is too early to go home and as customary it is necessary to have some caffè (what Americans call espresso) as you leave the bar with a couple of beers porta via, you turn the corner there is the Colosseo, huge and brightly lit against a starry night. You and your friends decide that it’s cold but it would be great to sit outside and have a beer on a bench in front of the Colosseo. Yeah, even in the cold being able to do that is really quite outstanding--outstanding that a single street separates the modern life of Italy and can transport you to antiquity.
           
Mamma mia, Michelangelo!
            Ok, this may sound a little cliché but every cliché stems from some sort of truth. I truly had a spiritual experience while in the La Cappella Sistina. Michelangelo was more than I ever could have imagined and I already had high expectations. I cannot give words to the feeling and there is possibly no image and no words that could adequately portray the experience, it is something that must be lived. Honestly, if I only traveled to Roma to see the La Cappella Sistina, I think I would be satisfied. As I saw it, the colors and shapes seduced my eyes. My irises must have been dilated in the absolute intoxication of the dopamine and serotonin circulating through my body. I probably would have had Stendhal Syndrome if I hadn’t been trying to be so aware not to have it. But another part of the Sistine Chapel that was very special, was the opportunity to look at others relish in Michelangelo. I saw their faces and I could see that utter fascination and awe with it. I wish photography were allowed in there because I would have loved to capture people’s reaction. There was even a teenage girl that went to tears, yes, I felt her energy. As an art lover myself, I felt all the energy and passion of Michelangelo. Even an atheist could not avoid feeling a spiritual experience there. Michelangelo was certainly a divine creature.

I saw a lot of art in Roma. I saw Ancient art, Roman art, Renaissance art, Modern art, local art…should I go on? I was inundated with art. It is an art historian’s dream to be in all of the museums. I wish I had more money and time to go to all of them. I guess this just means I have to return…

La mia dolce vita

Ok, I am almost a little embarrassed to admit how many times I visited La Fontana di Trevi. I think I went a total of four different times because I wanted to capture the different ways light hits the fountain. I went early in the day one day, then late afternoon, and then again when it was nighttime. I suppose for anyone that knows me it’s not really a surprise considering that I have been talking about seeing the Trevi fountain for quite some time and how I joke around saying I would jump into the fountain and reenact Anita Ekberg’s scene at the Trevi fountain in La Dolce Vita. It as so beautiful in person and so right, the little antiquated architecture surrounding it. I loved it so much and I threw in two coins. I was unaware of this at the time that I did it but apparently throwing in two coins not only ensures a certain return to Roma but it also guarantees meeting true love. Hehehe, we will see about that one!

If you have made it this far in my rambling about Roma, I commend you because I have no idea if any of this makes any sense to anyone except me. I have so many tales to tell of this trip but I am afraid I am not quite the best writer and that I can’t tell the concise story with the best details. I don’t want to bore anyone so just a brief little story about my departure and I will end this blog that I have spent writing on and off during this incredibly boring flight that only makes me wish I never had to leave.

Tuesday January 26, 2010 at 9:45 A.M. was my original departure date and time. The morning started off a bit bad. It was the hostel manager’s knocking at my door that woke me up and I immediately fell into a panic because at that moment I knew that my alarm hadn’t gone off and it was certainly late. I look at the clock at it is 8 A.M. I yelled profanities into the air and told the manager to wait. I step onto the ground and my socks got soaked in water, yes, my room was flooded with water. I get dressed the fastest I ever have in my life and miserably picked up my wet belongings from the floor. The manager is trying to get an explanation out of me and I say I have no idea what happened (in Italian because she doesn’t know English) and I rush out. I run to Termini (basically the central station of Roma where you can get buses, the subway, and/or the train). I make it to Fiumicino very late and missed my flight. As I approach the Continental counter the lady looked at me with pity (I must of looked a absolute mess) and said to me I had to pay the penalty fees. This is when I begin to search for my wallet but where was my wallet? Who knows…the point is now I was stuck in Rome without money and nowhere to go. Lucky for me pity went a long way and airline woman waived my fees. But I was still without a wallet and I check my pockets, I only to find a few crumbled up receipts and €4 to my name. I had no idea what to do so the first thing I did do was order a cappuccino to get my head straight: money remaining €2.70.
            “At least I have my passport,” I said to myself out loud as I drank my cappuccino and thought through plans of what I could do. My best idea was to call my really good friend in Amsterdam because well, to be honest, he always has really good ideas. So I go to the pay phone and I try to make a call, I stick in €1 (money remaining: €1.70) and dial the number and I got an error message. I hung up the phone thinking the machine will return my money, nope that didn’t happen. At this point I’m thinking that I was stupid for having a cappuccino. I sit a little longer contemplating and knew the only way I could resolve anything was if I got an internet connection.
            Nothing in this world is free and life is filled with “NO” when you don’t have money or a credit card but I did receive compassion and I got internet connection so I began to mobilize myself and found solutions to my problems. My very good friend in Holland saved my life wiring me money and couchsurfing.org saved me from having to sleep at the airport for two nights. So maybe everything really does happen for a reason because if I hadn’t missed my plane, I would have never met Gaetano and his wonderful friends. Tuesday night was probably the funniest and greatest night I had during my whole trip and I have to thank destiny for it. They were so much fun and the funniest group of people I have ever hung out with and they all made me feel so welcome, as if I had always been part of their circle of friends. It was truly an amazing and great experience that I will always treasure in my life.

Eccola, the watered down version of my Roma vacation and I know it probably doesn’t make much sense but I have had little sleep and it is 1:10 A.M. in Roma and my body is telling me to sleep but I am trying to stay up until I get back to Sacramento. I still have over seven hours until I get to Sacramento but also my battery life is dwindling down and I lost my American wall plug for my computer (geesh, I am constantly losing things) so I can’t charge up when I am in Houston. So with this I say farewell and soon I will write a recap of my other adventures in Italy, Amsterdam, and Nicaragua but for now this is what I needed to write because I am still filled with Roma’s magic.

Ciao e a presto amici!

I need to travel!